Category Archives: my life

do not wait for the perfect moment, take the moment and make it perfect

I am not the same girl as last night. He broke the silence. I received a goodnight text. He thought about me before he fell asleep. So much that he sent a message. A really cute one. My confidence rose from 2 to 8. I am crying tonight too, but this time it is happy tears! ♥

//pictures and headline from whi

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i wish i had the power to ignore you like you ignore me

But I think that we both know I am the weakest of us.

I can see that you are online, and I am waiting for you to talk to me. Maybe you will start a conversation if I do not? The last four times we have been chatting with each other I have been the one with the first hello. It is now two weeks since the last one.

You are nice, handsome and funny. I smile, laugh and feel happy when we are talking. But lately you have not been the one who keeps the conversation going. I feel like you do not dislike me, but you do not like me either.

It freaking hurts, because I love you so much! You say that you love me too, but you do not act like it is true. To do as you say is definitely not one of your strengths. You give me hope every time you tell me that I am your favorite, that you care about me, that we are going to have so much fun in the summer, and so on. I do not believe that what you say is totally true or will happen. I have waited for it two years now.

One of the worst parts is that you broke my heart, and I still love you with all the pieces. You fell in love with me a long time ago, but i was not ready. I hate myself for that. The summer I broke your heart, it healed before the snow fell. When you broke mine, one year and three months ago, I began to love you with all the pieces. I still do.

These days I often ask myself how long i can manage to keep my pride, by not talking to you. Last time I held out less than a month. That was a good thing. We have had many good periods after that. Now I  am doubting. You will probably not be the one to start a conversation. If I do not talk to you ever again… I wonder if you will miss me. Maybe a tiny little bit. I will miss you a million times more.

The main problem in my head is: If you do not care, why should I?

I guess that you are perfectly happy without me? Well, I cry myself to sleep almost every night.

Good night.

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shut up, i wear heels bigger than your dick

I have wanted these shoes for such a long time: Jeffrey Campbell Lita with sequins. Like most other fifteen years old girls I do not have enough money to buy them and feel good about it.

P E R F E C T I O N !

Therefor I participate in a competition. It is a tiny chance that I can win them. If you also want to give it a try, check out this blog: LISSIS. By the way, that is my favorite blog. Good luck sweeties!

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confession 89: i´m constantly afraid that i´m not good enough

Today I am feeling so unsuccessful.
I can not sleep, just cry.

I am not pretty enough,
not a good enough football player,
not confident enough,
not a good enough friend,
not popular enough.

I need to sleep now. If I still can not, I will just have to go to school tomorrow looking like a junkie.

// pictures from whi 

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if you care about what other people think, you will always be their prisoner

Hi! I was making a new post about the autumn, when the summer suddenly came. It is not often you can wear shorts in October if you live in Norway, but I did it today (and I did not freeze at all). Some people looked strange at me, but whatever. Love it when I do not care about what other people think! OK, I admit it. I do care about what other people think, just not so much that I will wear jeans because almost everyone else does…

// quote by james fray, text by me, picture 1 from tumblr, picture 2 from whi

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boy you know you get me high, won’t you take me for a ride?

A couple of days ago I went to a amusement park with some friends. I almost freaked out in the largest carousel, but it was cool! The mood in the park was not so good as last year. Perhaps I have become too old for it? Hope not, cause it does not happen so much around here in the autumn. Maybe I am getting to adventurous for the little city I live in? My biggest wish at the moment is to travel, and to live in another country.

// pictures from whi, text by me

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