do not wait for the perfect moment, take the moment and make it perfect

I am not the same girl as last night. He broke the silence. I received a goodnight text. He thought about me before he fell asleep. So much that he sent a message. A really cute one. My confidence rose from 2 to 8. I am crying tonight too, but this time it is happy tears! ♥

//pictures and headline from whi

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i wish i had the power to ignore you like you ignore me

But I think that we both know I am the weakest of us.

I can see that you are online, and I am waiting for you to talk to me. Maybe you will start a conversation if I do not? The last four times we have been chatting with each other I have been the one with the first hello. It is now two weeks since the last one.

You are nice, handsome and funny. I smile, laugh and feel happy when we are talking. But lately you have not been the one who keeps the conversation going. I feel like you do not dislike me, but you do not like me either.

It freaking hurts, because I love you so much! You say that you love me too, but you do not act like it is true. To do as you say is definitely not one of your strengths. You give me hope every time you tell me that I am your favorite, that you care about me, that we are going to have so much fun in the summer, and so on. I do not believe that what you say is totally true or will happen. I have waited for it two years now.

One of the worst parts is that you broke my heart, and I still love you with all the pieces. You fell in love with me a long time ago, but i was not ready. I hate myself for that. The summer I broke your heart, it healed before the snow fell. When you broke mine, one year and three months ago, I began to love you with all the pieces. I still do.

These days I often ask myself how long i can manage to keep my pride, by not talking to you. Last time I held out less than a month. That was a good thing. We have had many good periods after that. Now I  am doubting. You will probably not be the one to start a conversation. If I do not talk to you ever again… I wonder if you will miss me. Maybe a tiny little bit. I will miss you a million times more.

The main problem in my head is: If you do not care, why should I?

I guess that you are perfectly happy without me? Well, I cry myself to sleep almost every night.

Good night.

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shut up, i wear heels bigger than your dick

I have wanted these shoes for such a long time: Jeffrey Campbell Lita with sequins. Like most other fifteen years old girls I do not have enough money to buy them and feel good about it.

P E R F E C T I O N !

Therefor I participate in a competition. It is a tiny chance that I can win them. If you also want to give it a try, check out this blog: LISSIS. By the way, that is my favorite blog. Good luck sweeties!

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happy new year!

In 2011 I have sticked to the boring, same and old shit from 2010. There have also been some highlights: I have traveled to many new countries, cut out most of my prejudices, kept in touch with my friends, kissed a handsome boy, played boardgames with family, listened to good music and thought a lot about what I want to do with my future.

Today is the day people realize that they have the power of their own lives. Funny, huh? Of course, I am talking about the New Year´s resolutions. I believe that it is important to have goals to develop as a person. To make them easier to remember I will show them to the readers of this blog.

1. Dare more! I want to make new friends, wear the clothes I like, be 100% me, and not bother about what other people think.
2. Live out some of my dreams! To do that I need to be more spontaneous, positive and brave.
3. Spend more time with my friends! Less time on the computer, more time outdoor having fun.
4. Exercise more! I love to run, but a little more muscles would definitely not look wrong in the summer.
5. Enjoy life! You only live once, so you better have fun. I should stop taking so much for granted and make the best out of every situation.

I hope you all will get an amazing 2012! Love


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hello november

//pictures: tumblr

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we found love in a hopeless place

You should really see the music video I will post under this text. It is so beautiful! The song is amazing too ♥

//pictures and video – rihanna ft calvin harris with we found love

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